This past Spring, I started frequenting the StoneCat website again. I thought I might give the 50 mile trail race another try. As challenging as my first ultra was, I think I’ve known there would be a 2nd. Then I applied, interviewed for, and was extended an offer for my new role at my company. For me, that changed everything.
Knowing my personality, I know I need to be careful with overloading my plate right now. I want to do well. No, I want to better than well. And as hungry as I may have been to launch into a training calendar filled with back-to-back weekend long runs, I need to back off. That decision didn’t come easy. When StoneCat registration opened, I had second thoughts. Then StoneCat registration closed and I felt immediate regret. That wore off quickly though because I know, deep down, that my decision is the right one for me. This doesn’t mean I will stop running and only focus on my new job, but it means I’m being real about my need for balance.
Before I made the decision to not rev up my training, I had already registered for two marathons as part of my ultra training plan: Mad Marathon (back in July) and Quebec City Marathon in August. Here’s where the burnout comes into play. In May, I ran my best marathon to date at the Maine Coast Marathon and talked here about how I managed my race for the first time. That race resulted in a new PR, a Boston qualifying time, and legs & mind that reflected that hard work. Tired.
Enter Mad Marathon. By race day, I had already made my non-ultra decision. I found it difficult to get my head in place for that race, since initially it was to be run as a training run for StoneCat. Now as I prepare for yet another “training marathon” in Quebec, I’m feeling mentally and physically burned out. I still plan to be there and still hope to have a good day, but without the goal I originally set, I’m struggling with my motivation.
This lack of motivation has been creeping in ever since Mad Marathon. Although I got my 18 miler in on Sunday, that’s actually the last time I ran (as I write this on Thursday). I just haven’t been diggin’ running lately. My hope is that, by giving into that feeling for a few days, I'll realize I miss it and WANT to get back out there.
What do YOU do when lacking motivation/energy/drive?